Hello Lovelies,
Here is my recent progress..
As we all know Valentines Day was this week. I am blessed to have so much love around me via friends, family and spiritual family! We show love to each other all year round so I have to admit that this year it snuck up on me. My V-day routine is usually a wonderful romantic weekend , with dinner and all sorts of festivities but due to my surgery I have to admit I just wasn't feeling the going out to eat like I used to. It dawned on me that going out to eat is not fun anymore. I think that it is because I have to put so much thought into what I eat that it can get a little draining at times. Would I change my decision No way, not at all every path that we take has both ups and downs and this happens to be a down. I never realized how much of a role food played in my life. Food was like my friend. Think about it when some one has a baby we eat, when someone passes we eat, when we wed we eat! It is a part of our culture but I am learning to make wiser decisions and not to over indulge just because everyone else around me is.
When I was at the restaurant I watched the portions that "we" consume and it made me realize how much I over ate, it really had me thinking. I am often asked "How does it feel" in reference to my surgery and it is really hard to explain. I feel like "myself" but when I look in the mirror I am changing and I am noticing that some of the people around me are expecting me to be different but I am not! I have never been one to not know who I am, I have always had a great since of my own identity. I am a woman who knows what she wants and how to get it, I have always been that way but even in that I am constantly reevaluating myself. But I think this comes with the territory. I am learning to deal with all the emotions and just be okay with the new territory the lord is allowing me to walk in. When you have WL surgery the change is more than about food, your whole life changes. How is your life changing?
