No one ever begins a journey to fail, that is just not how it happens. I can remember in my early 20's having my emotional struggles and I ate most of my feelings. Many people wonder and ask "How did you get here?" Honestly I used to say that I didn't know but I know now, I just lost my way. You see growing up in poverty and homeless many times in my childhood I remember when I did eat I ate like a camel. When you have a childhood like I had you learn to find something good and hold on to it and just deal with the rest! I had always been an emotional eater but it seemed the older I got the worse it had gotten. Food was like my drug. During this journey I have learned that food is just okay and that there are so many other things in my like that are more important. Going out to eat, the food at family functions and all of that are no longer fun for me. I went through what I call a grieving process over it. One thing that I learned about myself during this process is something I have always known but never really taken heed to and that is that I am a survivor and I have so much more strength than I give myself credit for. The security guard at my job says to me at least twice a week "Tally, I can tell that you are feeling better about yourself!" That made me think, how was I carrying myself before my chance. I had always been a confident woman, but somewhere along the way I forgot me! I forgot how to smell the flowers. I forgot how to date myself. Everyone else was a priority and I wasn't! Ladies and gentlemen do not do this!! If you are doing this slowly but surely change this bad habit! We all have a voice and it is our choice how we use it! What is your voice saying?
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